I'm sick of the way I've been living my life & I'll say why.. All I do is bring everyone put downs and I'm always negative about everything. I'm always saying kill me, i need to commit suicide and that isn't really the answer. The real answer is why do I do these things? I do them for attention which obviously I need. I also have other reasons and here are them, I get called gay everyday, and it's quite annoying knowing what these complete ass holes say just to get a laugh with their friends, and the thing that gets to me, my friends dont stick up for me, which is not entirely true because some do but others are just fake. I'm happy I found love with someone so quickly in life, a week from this date with be our one month and he really is a good person & I'm thinking im going to spend the rest of my life with him. At the starting I called him gay, which kinda started our whole relationship. Yeah we have our fights but were over them & totally in love. I love you mister number 4.